Today is our 3rd year wedding anniversary.
But let me tell you a story about my ex/s.
Most of us went through the typical stages of love.. and of heartbreaks.
Lucky for some who did not have any distress in finding “the one”.
And I salute those couples who had their first, and eventually their last.
I had two past relationships before I met Rod.
The first one was back in college. He was sort of a neighbour in my hometown. We were quite distanced (Cavite vs QC), but we would still find a way to see each other, specially on weekends. We had the usual boyfriend-girlfriend set up. Dating. Watching movie. Dine out. Dating watching movie dine out. For almost four years it went like that. He was kind and a genuine person. I first learned that “kilig” feeling from him. It was fun at first but it became a routine. Until I just felt that something was missing in our relationship. I did not know what it was until it became boring. I was bored. To the point that I fell in love with another guy which lead us to break. I knew he was totally hurt. Though the act was wrong, I took it as a blessing in disguise cause I felt more at ease when we ended the relationship.
So then that guy I was seeing during the ending part of my first relationship became my second boyfriend. Being with another guy besides your boyfriend was definitely not right (yeah, i know..), plus the fact that he is actually a son of my previous patient at that time, which is, supposedly not allowed. (again.. i know..). But we were in love, if i may say. He would always make me laugh. He had a good sense of humour. For two years everything seems to be perfect, for all I know. Until the day he told me he’s seeing someone else (karma? I know right..?) And that was my biggest heartache. I fought for the love, but it just didn’t work out and, probably was really never meant to.
So why am I reminiscing this story on our anniversary day?
Because I want to tell you another story..
please bear with me. Makwento c mommy! hehe 😃
Back when I was in Philippines, I used to go to Baclaran church every Wednesday.
I prayed and prayed for one thing.
To give me a second chance and be back with my second bf then.
I prayed for it for almost a year.
And then I realised one of the lines in the movie, “One More Chance”, John Lloyd and Bea (who doesn’t know the movie??!)
And my favorite line goes..
“Baka kaya tayo iniiwan ng mga taong mahal natin, kasi baka merong bagong darating na mas Okay, na mas mamahalin tayo, yung taong hindi tayo sasaktan at paaasahin, yung nag-iisang taong magtatama ng mali sa buhay naten, nang lahat ng mali sa buhay mo”.
oh sino nakarelate? :)) hehe.
After a period of time, I changed my prayer. I asked,
I asked, “Mama Mary, Lord, mukhang malabo na po yung prayer ko kaya pinagppray ko na lang po na ibigay nyo yung taong para saken.”
And then I added,
“Lord, Mama Mary, pray ko po na yung ibigay nyo saken yung hindi ganon katangkaran para sakto lang saken. Saka po sana hindi maitim, pero wag naman masyadong maputi. Gusto ko po yung malinis sa katawan, kahit may tigyawat. Saka po gusto ko po yung nakasalamin, para mukhang matalino.”
Furthermore, I asked, “Lord, Mama Mary, gusto ko ren po yung may maayos na work. Yung umiinom onti pero hindi nagyoyosi. At higit sa lahat yung mamahalin po ako at aalagaan ako at magiging mga anak namin”.
I was laughing at myself when I went out of the church.
Of all the problems in the world, I was praying and asking for a man. (kapal ng mukha!hehe)
But I read before if you pray and ask “Pray for the best, and be specific”.
To my surprise, my prayer was answered on that very same night. And that was the night I started talking to Rod.
And that was and will always be a very big blessing to me.
Once in our life, we will meet someone, fall in love, and be hurt.
But that doesn’t stop us from looking (and praying) for the one. For the destined one.
I never regret any of those heartaches cause it led me to where I should be right now.
I wouldn’t feel as much happier at this moment if I have not felt that unpleasant emotion before.
To Rod/Babe/Dada,
Thank you for the chance of falling in love again.
Thank you for holding on and never giving up for the times I feel weak and low.
I thank God for giving me exactly what I asked for. Indeed, it is you.
Most of the time, I demand a lot from you, from helping me with household chores, giving me more time, being more sensitive to my needs, and everything else. I may not have included it in my prayers before, but I know it’s not too late to add some more. We will continue to pray for the best.
Every day may seem more challenging and more difficult for us, yet every day is also a celebration that we are in each other’s arms.
Cheers to our past, present, and our future.
You are my biggest love and will always be.
I love you. 😉
“Yesterday’s the past, tomorrow’s the future, but today is a gift. That’s why it’s called the present”.- Bil Keane
