a letter to my 1 year old son

November 07, 2014

My dearest Marshall,

As I write this, I will try my hardest not to cry at the thought of not celebrating today’s special day with you.

Watching you on an iPad screen, staring at me closely, while I greet you a happy 1st birthday is very heart-breaking for me.10749087_864253276918511_642364203_nI wonder what runs on your beautiful mind baby..

Perhaps, just looking at your bright eyes and giving me that genuine smile is like telling me,
“It’s okay mom.. I understand.” (and now I am teary-eyed)10728806_864253280251844_659765229_nIt has been exactly 365 days of happiness for the entire family since God brought you into this world. And every single day, we glorify Him for that.

It is still fresh on my mind how I used to carry you on my tummy for 39 weeks..SONY DSCand how excited your dad was when he first saw you.IMG_3414 (2)By the time you read this, can you still remember what life looked like before you turned as who you are now? Probably not, but how I wish you would cherish every moment we shared together. Even from a distance.

Talking about distance, I remember the day when dad and I had to go back here in Singapore.

It was a New Years’s Day yet we need to leave for work.

And that was one tough decision for us.

Luckily, your dad and I were so much blessed that God chose us to be with the best family members. Despite longinquity, we know you are always in the hands of loving people.

Remember those sleepless nights of Nanay though she still got to work?10743342_10203387031650083_47452815_n

And  the eagerness of Tatay to teach you how to drive,10681754_841720949171744_21873707_n

the laughter and giggles you shared with Tita Tetet,1552818_10201613999525388_1957765851_n

the sweetness of Tito Mac when he carried you for the first time,10412021_771219909636305_8909364680393716027_n

the thoughtfulness of Tita Leah to constantly give you little something..10646624_771220049636291_4862311440136878756_n

How about the times you hold Papa’s hand to guide you climb the stairs,2014-10-25

or Mama’s lullabies to let you fall asleep,10726582_864268066917032_1231898893_n

the effort of Tita Belbel to capture your every important growing up details,feb 14 (d)

and the patience of Tito Itoy to look after your kakulitan…10743598_864264390250733_1314236716_n

When you grow old, think about all these important people and please always be grateful to them. For you will never be the same person you are now without their enormous help.

You had your first cry,

your first smile,

first crawl,

first step,

first teeth,

and a lot more.

Anak, we may not be there in every first of your life, and we admit that we have missed some of your precious milestones.

It might be too early for you to comprehend the things that are happening for now, but in time you will.

It’s very difficult for us being far away from you but just seeing that adorable face makes it all worth it.IMG_8620

 Anak, please understand that we will not buy everything you want.

But we will try to give you anything you need.

As of the moment, dad and I are working hard to give you the best future you can have.

Just keep holding on and stay strong baby. It won’t take too long and we will be together as a family.IMG_5373

Eventually, we will have the most important valuable asset in life. Time..

 Soon you can become whoever you want to be, and do whatever you want to do.

Soon you’ll become taller, and bigger, and smarter.

I hope I can still have as many hugs and kisses I am having from you now

Time flies so fast and the thought of you being out of this world alone,

finding yourself,

chasing your dreams,

and making your own destiny frightens me.

Though at the same time, I am anticipating you becoming an amazing and dynamic individual.

Tomorrow morning, we will fly back to the Philippines, then come back to Singapore on Sunday.

It’s alright. We will have at least 36 hours to spend and celebrate your 1st year. It’s not too late, right?

 We love you more than all these words can say. Happy 1st-year anak!

God bless you more…

See you tomorrow when you wake up!10748996_864276780249494_1079768037_n

Bunch of kisses and hugs,

Ina 😉

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